Growing Up

First note in this blog. I love all of my friends and wouldn't want them to change a thing about them.  This has nothing to do with you, but everything to do with me.   I have realized something in the last few months. It's also really hard to admit.... I have started to turn into an adult.  Sometimes I wonder where that girl in her early twenties was going?

I have felt torn for awhile now.  I loved running around all night with my friends and drinking and dancing.  I used to love eating a hot dog at 2 am from a street vendor.  I used to drive home from a fun night out when the sun was rising.  I will never regret any of those times.  I have just started realizing that I'm not really sure if I like to do those things anymore.  My idea of a night out now is going to grab a beer with a friend and catch up.  A good night out would be dressing up and going to have dinner at a nice restaurant .  I also like the idea of getting home before midnight so I can still get up at a decent hour the next morning.  I actually look forward on weekends to getting up around 7, cleaning the house while I sip on some coffee.  Or getting up early to do homework, or make a great breakfast.  

Now my friends will say that I am always known as the party girl of group and the one who always had a date to run off to.  I loved having that life.  Some people may think my behavioral changes are because I have met a man and want to be serious with him.  In all honestly, there is some truth to that.  He is all that I have been looking for in a partner, and he does make me want to settle down.  I also look at it from another prospective, if I will still single right now, would I still be feeling this way.  I would have to say yes. I was burned out on dating and wasting my energy on that.  I also know that I was drinking too much when I would go out and knew that I needed to slow that down.  

The main reason I have the desire to grow-up is for my health.  I want to have a healthy body and active lifestyle for many, many years.  I know that I am thin and fit and this doesn't have much to do with this.  I want to be healthy on the inside.  I want to get enough sleep every night so I feel good the next day.  I want to drink less alcohol.  I also want to protect my body, so I can have a baby when I want to. I have started loving yoga again, and that entertains me until summer hiking.

Now, this doesn't mean that I won't go out and not have fun.  It just means that I would rather go bowling instead of clubbing, watching a movie at home, instead of a crazy night out.  I haven't lost complete lust for craziness and fun, I just feel like I can get it from other ways now.